So it's been a year and a half since I last turned in a chapter Oh, my poor Molly Jones...
I would really like to finish the next few chapters and then end the series with an epilogue. But I am not sure how that would work. I am not the same person that started the project... and it's been so long since I have written anything. The question that I have been dreading to ask is can I still write? Or worse, do I still want to?
I don't know. I have been bitching for a year about writers block...I've given myself tons of motivational speeches, but nothing really comes of it. I blame really good TV. Or, I would if somehow my eyes were propped open, the remote was glued to my hand, and my ass was magically Velcro-ed to the chair. None of that is the case.
And we can all blame situational instances and ups and downs in our personal relationships for a temporary pause in creativity, but neither of those explain a near constant state of inertia. I used to dread writing a chapter because I didn't know where it was going or I feared I didn't have the skill to write it, but now there is no fear. There is just...nothing.
And I see it elsewhere too. It seems as though I am not the only person on dA that suffering from serious lack of motivation. (The format change seems a bit like a death knell. Like a once prominent business trying to avoid obscurity.) I don't know what happened. What was different five years ago? I keep trying to recapture the energy that I had in the years between 2011-2015 to no avail.